defy gravity!

At the risk of
losing its meaning in translation, kilig is that euphoria that rips
through your body (sometimes violently) and ebbs, ending in abbreviated
shudders (sometimes gently so). I went through both extremes recently, but now
I’m more at the ebb end of things.

But I remember the
highs. Oh dear, the frenzied, frantic, long-distance phonecalls (on the
first month, it came every other day…soon it became daily; now,
predictably, they are fewer and further in between, but not a little less
frenzied). The flimsy, ridiculously-contrived reasons just to talk to me. The
sweetest little reassurances in the most deadpan manner possible.

Now I’ve begun to
accept that it will never go beyond the friendship we’ve built. But I love my
little secret. It’s not filthy, but it’s not for all either. It’s mine. Ours,
actually…even if there is no us

I miss you. Terribly.
But my day is no longer hinged on that little beep, I am emancipated from the
anticipation.

And, oh yes, do i miss
the kilig

me

Jelly Ann Racal (a.k.a. Jillian Cruz, our brilliant graphic artist) showed me the ropes today. So now, here is my blog. It’s supposed to chronicle my life, insipid details included.

Stealing time from my employer, I am posting this in the middle of the afternoon publishing rush. In a bit, I’m skeedadling my way home to start makeup for a surprise birthday party I am to sing at. Perhaps later, catch a movie (the Wedding date is playing). I need a brainless but charming distraction (our paper’s words) to keep me from thinking of him 24/7. I’ve simmered, seethed, and am now cooling it in that department.

I think I’ve talked him out of my system, hahahaha. Although I woke up to his voice over the clear line this morning. I guess I cannot really say goodbye to a good thing.

Earlier, I had a meeting with Bigfoot. My goof/gaffe/total disaster turned out to be good for them, so the sword of Damocles has finally been lifted. I’m all set for a second chance at this alternate career as a serious scientist (bwahahaha). Like I said, no goodbyes to a good thing

me